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Thursday, October 28, 2004
relationship smeelationship
di salah satu episode ajang ajeng yg di MTV (kalo ga salah waktu final), salah satu kontestan, Ditha, ditanya...kamu akan pilih orang yang cinta mati sama kamu atau orang yg memberikan kamu kemapanan.. dan jawaban dia.. kalo orang ini cinta sama saya, dia akan memberikan saya kemapanan. smart answer...
kemaren faney telfon, such along time i didn't hear from her... since i got guilty all over my face. well, ternyata dia ga mikir gitu... soalnya gw ngerasa banget, waktu itu, dia ga enak cerita tentang dibalik lagi ama cowonya.. dan gw malah ngerasa gw manas2in dia... pasti nyokapnya marah kalo tau apa yg udah gw omongin ke faney. but she's my bestfriend, n i want the best for her, bukan cinta mati tanpa usaha, tapi untuk orang se-fragile faney, dia butuh pegangan.
if it takes to tell the truth about how i fell, n she'll hate me for that.. it's okay.
hopefully for me, i got sms dari dia sebelum puasa, about her latest news, dan kemaren dia curhat sama gw ttg semua... i'm all ears fan. it is hard to get out of a long relationship n start a new one, without your family involved. but i just don't get, knapa mereka semua ga bisa be happy for her, kan semua fakta udah jelas...
apasih yg mereka harapin dari seorang manusia.. apalagi manusia yg ga bisa berusaha sendiri buat dirinya.. apalagi buat orang lain.. maybe it's too much story to be burn n closed down, lama2 kan keliatan juga setiap orang punya prioritas beda.. n i dont think their going the same way...
eniwei marriege is not the end of a relationship, it's the beginning.. and i think u should begin with the right person... n the right mind.. not because it's been along therm relationship.
kemaren faney telfon, such along time i didn't hear from her... since i got guilty all over my face. well, ternyata dia ga mikir gitu... soalnya gw ngerasa banget, waktu itu, dia ga enak cerita tentang dibalik lagi ama cowonya.. dan gw malah ngerasa gw manas2in dia... pasti nyokapnya marah kalo tau apa yg udah gw omongin ke faney. but she's my bestfriend, n i want the best for her, bukan cinta mati tanpa usaha, tapi untuk orang se-fragile faney, dia butuh pegangan.
if it takes to tell the truth about how i fell, n she'll hate me for that.. it's okay.
hopefully for me, i got sms dari dia sebelum puasa, about her latest news, dan kemaren dia curhat sama gw ttg semua... i'm all ears fan. it is hard to get out of a long relationship n start a new one, without your family involved. but i just don't get, knapa mereka semua ga bisa be happy for her, kan semua fakta udah jelas...
apasih yg mereka harapin dari seorang manusia.. apalagi manusia yg ga bisa berusaha sendiri buat dirinya.. apalagi buat orang lain.. maybe it's too much story to be burn n closed down, lama2 kan keliatan juga setiap orang punya prioritas beda.. n i dont think their going the same way...
eniwei marriege is not the end of a relationship, it's the beginning.. and i think u should begin with the right person... n the right mind.. not because it's been along therm relationship.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
3 messages
ga ngerti.. ga ngerti... ga ngerti... gimana sih ngatur blog2 ini... susyah sekali... orang kok pada bisa sih... cuma mau simpel aja.. biar ga bolong... biar links nya bisa, punya tag board... hiks...
hari ini dapet beberapa messages di frenster, satu menggembirakan, satu aneh, satu lagi aneh juga...
satu dari ciciet, senangnya ngedenger someone (close to me) masih seneng ngomongin ttg advertising... it's like i'm walking alone in this goal i want, knapa sih semua pada give up begitu... maybe karena kita trisakti ya...kayanya ga ada harapan ke advertising, mungkin pada ngerasa kalah aja ama anak2 laen.
u make me feel like i'm the last survival... great romantic... u stop believing and the world stop spinning round...
bener ga ya teks nya... sebenernya ini lagunya tunde baiyewu... tapi berhubung nge-browse belom dapet teksnya..jadi ngarang de...
yah pokonya lagu itu lagi explain what i'm feeling right now... padahal pas baca di websitenya... tryt ttg cinta juga.. (kok ga ada hubungannya).
yang dua lagi (frenster) perlu dibahas ya?...
hari ini dapet beberapa messages di frenster, satu menggembirakan, satu aneh, satu lagi aneh juga...
satu dari ciciet, senangnya ngedenger someone (close to me) masih seneng ngomongin ttg advertising... it's like i'm walking alone in this goal i want, knapa sih semua pada give up begitu... maybe karena kita trisakti ya...kayanya ga ada harapan ke advertising, mungkin pada ngerasa kalah aja ama anak2 laen.
u make me feel like i'm the last survival... great romantic... u stop believing and the world stop spinning round...
bener ga ya teks nya... sebenernya ini lagunya tunde baiyewu... tapi berhubung nge-browse belom dapet teksnya..jadi ngarang de...
yah pokonya lagu itu lagi explain what i'm feeling right now... padahal pas baca di websitenya... tryt ttg cinta juga.. (kok ga ada hubungannya).
yang dua lagi (frenster) perlu dibahas ya?...
Monday, October 25, 2004
be heard?
uhuk..uhuk... cie batuk...
tangan gw dingin banget nih, rasanya sweater kurang tebel nih, kurang cukup menghadang dinginnya AC kantor. belom mulai-mulai kerja juga yan, iya iya bentar... up date doang minggu kemaren... yg sebenernya ga terjadi apa-apa.
am i that unmeaning to them?... ok yan, back to that point again... i thought u weren't gonna talk about it.
sometimes i feel that i dont have a partner, sometimes i feel like i'm my only friend...ayo nyanyi...
ya udah lah udah lewat, i always could and would be a listener... just don't have the time to talk... or be heard... yah ga papa lah, kan punya blog.. but i need a feedback.. manusia kan mahluk sosial... need each other..
kaya ga ada yg compatible buat diajak ngomong, satu pikiran lah... yah just gave up my hope aja...monik malah bilangnya.. kakak pingin punya cowo ya... ugh ga ngerti banget sih...
tangan gw dingin banget nih, rasanya sweater kurang tebel nih, kurang cukup menghadang dinginnya AC kantor. belom mulai-mulai kerja juga yan, iya iya bentar... up date doang minggu kemaren... yg sebenernya ga terjadi apa-apa.
am i that unmeaning to them?... ok yan, back to that point again... i thought u weren't gonna talk about it.
sometimes i feel that i dont have a partner, sometimes i feel like i'm my only friend...ayo nyanyi...
ya udah lah udah lewat, i always could and would be a listener... just don't have the time to talk... or be heard... yah ga papa lah, kan punya blog.. but i need a feedback.. manusia kan mahluk sosial... need each other..
kaya ga ada yg compatible buat diajak ngomong, satu pikiran lah... yah just gave up my hope aja...monik malah bilangnya.. kakak pingin punya cowo ya... ugh ga ngerti banget sih...
Saturday, October 23, 2004
it's one of those saturday...
it's one of those saturday...
the ones that i had to go to work, with nobody else in the room, nobody has arrived yet, and all alone in the graphic room. yah... maen fenster ama nulis blog de... kan ga sempet juga sih tiap hari... nothing much to say but just late happenings like...
dateng ke fashion week mercedes, dan bertemu Sari Nila (my idol), who was sitting right infront of me... i dont care if anyones watching... it's my one moment in time... if i didn't grab it... i wouldn't have anymore chances... so i did.. don't ask me what i did... i just did it.
then, dinta had a tumor, trus mesti operasi, apa ya maksud tuhan sama dia dan keluarga gw, ais abis kecelakaan sekarang dia yg baru kelas 5 SD, mesti operasi, ngangkat tumornya... nyokap bilang, pas ais kecelakaan dia kok lebih gampang berserah diri dan jadi tau what to do tanpa panik, pas masalah ini kok malah susah to grab something out of if and make plans... akhirnya setelah beberapa hari diputusin untuk operasi, jadi check up semua dulu, minum obatnya yg dikasih, n cool down n re think... u know what happened, pas lagi nunggu dokter anestesinya diperiksa lagi ama dokter bedahnya.. and it's gone, the lump got smaller... trus dokternya bilang... wah kalo gini ga usah dioperasi ya, dinta minum obatnya aja... what?...
pas lagi hari operasi, gw lagi supervisi foto.. trus dia sms gw..
dinta : kakak aku ga jadi operasi dong...
me : berarti dinta banyak yg doain
dinta : ya iya dong..
then, that lebaran n xmas hectic... belom lagi pesenan om sule' hua... ancur ancur de nih badan... udah bindeng dan tangan gw dingin bgt seharian... pasti kalo ga istirahat jadi flu berat.. n i can't have those by this time... what flu... is there any word that defined as flu... nope never heard of it...
the ones that i had to go to work, with nobody else in the room, nobody has arrived yet, and all alone in the graphic room. yah... maen fenster ama nulis blog de... kan ga sempet juga sih tiap hari... nothing much to say but just late happenings like...
dateng ke fashion week mercedes, dan bertemu Sari Nila (my idol), who was sitting right infront of me... i dont care if anyones watching... it's my one moment in time... if i didn't grab it... i wouldn't have anymore chances... so i did.. don't ask me what i did... i just did it.
then, dinta had a tumor, trus mesti operasi, apa ya maksud tuhan sama dia dan keluarga gw, ais abis kecelakaan sekarang dia yg baru kelas 5 SD, mesti operasi, ngangkat tumornya... nyokap bilang, pas ais kecelakaan dia kok lebih gampang berserah diri dan jadi tau what to do tanpa panik, pas masalah ini kok malah susah to grab something out of if and make plans... akhirnya setelah beberapa hari diputusin untuk operasi, jadi check up semua dulu, minum obatnya yg dikasih, n cool down n re think... u know what happened, pas lagi nunggu dokter anestesinya diperiksa lagi ama dokter bedahnya.. and it's gone, the lump got smaller... trus dokternya bilang... wah kalo gini ga usah dioperasi ya, dinta minum obatnya aja... what?...
pas lagi hari operasi, gw lagi supervisi foto.. trus dia sms gw..
dinta : kakak aku ga jadi operasi dong...
me : berarti dinta banyak yg doain
dinta : ya iya dong..
then, that lebaran n xmas hectic... belom lagi pesenan om sule' hua... ancur ancur de nih badan... udah bindeng dan tangan gw dingin bgt seharian... pasti kalo ga istirahat jadi flu berat.. n i can't have those by this time... what flu... is there any word that defined as flu... nope never heard of it...
Monday, October 04, 2004
when I die
When I die, I want to be
A child in Heaven.
I want to be
A ten-year-old cherub.
I want to be
A hero in Heaven,
And a peacemaker,
Just like my goal on Earth.
I will ask God if I can
Help the people in Purgatory.
I will help them think,
About their life,
And their spirits,
About their future.
I will help them
Hear their Heartsongs again,
So they can finally
See the face of God,
So soon.
When I die,
I want to be,
Just like I want to be
Here in Earth.
November 1999
© Matthew Joseph Thaddeus Stepanek
A child in Heaven.
I want to be
A ten-year-old cherub.
I want to be
A hero in Heaven,
And a peacemaker,
Just like my goal on Earth.
I will ask God if I can
Help the people in Purgatory.
I will help them think,
About their life,
And their spirits,
About their future.
I will help them
Hear their Heartsongs again,
So they can finally
See the face of God,
So soon.
When I die,
I want to be,
Just like I want to be
Here in Earth.
November 1999
© Matthew Joseph Thaddeus Stepanek
FOR OUR WORLD
We need to stop.
Just stop.
Stop for a moment…
Before anybody
Says or does anything
That may hurt anyone else.
We need to be silent.
Just silent.
Silent for a moment…
Before we forever lose
The blessing of songs
That grow in our hearts.
We need to notice.
Just notice.
Notice for a moment…
Before the future slips away
Into ashes and dust of humility.
Stop, be silent, and notice…
In so many ways, we are the same.
Our differences are unique treasures.
We have, we are, a mosaic of gifts
To nurture, to offer, to accept.
We need to be.
Just be.
Be for a moment…
Kind and gentle, innocent and trusting,
Like children and lambs,
Never judging or vengeful
Like the judging and vengeful.
And now, let us pray,
Differently, yet together,
Before there is no earth, no life,
No chance for peace.
September 12, 2001
© Matthew Joseph Thaddeus Stepanek
Just stop.
Stop for a moment…
Before anybody
Says or does anything
That may hurt anyone else.
We need to be silent.
Just silent.
Silent for a moment…
Before we forever lose
The blessing of songs
That grow in our hearts.
We need to notice.
Just notice.
Notice for a moment…
Before the future slips away
Into ashes and dust of humility.
Stop, be silent, and notice…
In so many ways, we are the same.
Our differences are unique treasures.
We have, we are, a mosaic of gifts
To nurture, to offer, to accept.
We need to be.
Just be.
Be for a moment…
Kind and gentle, innocent and trusting,
Like children and lambs,
Never judging or vengeful
Like the judging and vengeful.
And now, let us pray,
Differently, yet together,
Before there is no earth, no life,
No chance for peace.
September 12, 2001
© Matthew Joseph Thaddeus Stepanek
mattie's memoriam
pernah lagi nonton oprah, ada anak extraordinary yg cerita dia nulis buku, namanya mattie stefanek, seluruh badannya dipenuhin selang2 bahkan satu nembus lehernya dan dia masih semangat cerita ttg world peace and love.. i got interested, n watch the whole show. malah jadi sering bahkan bukan cuma di oprah... di larry king live juga ada. trus ada kesempatan nitip buku diluar, i got two books of his. terakhir ngeliat dia diwawancara oprah, lagi keputus2 nafasnya. bahkan pd satu show, oprah minta semua take a moment untuk doain sahabat kecilnya, mattie.. lama2 lupa aja soal mattie, except bukunya just hanging there in my bookself. trus sebulan lalu monik nanya, eh mattie stepanek apa kabar ya?.. kakak cari ka, browse aja... dan lupa, baru inget sekarang...lagi ga byk kerjaan. and this is what i found...
Mattie Stepanek died at Children's National Medical Center in Washington D.C. on Tuesday, June 22, according to a statement from the hospital. He had been hospitalized since early March for complications related to the disease that weakened most of his body's major functions. Mattie was 13 and is survived by his mom Jeni.
Mattie J.T. Stepanek is a 13-year-old young man who was born with a rare neuromuscular disease called dysautonomic mitochondrial myopathy. His disease is one of the 43 types of diseases being researched by the Muscular Dystrophy Association.
Mattie has also shared his messages of hope and peace on many television programs. He has been on the Oprah Winfrey Show, Larry King Live, Good Morning America, Primetime, The Today Show, and many other programs many times. Every year, he also helps with the Jerry Lewis Labor Day Telethon. In 2002, he drove cross country with his mom, and friends, Sandy and Chris, to be in Los Angeles for the Telethon.
He loved getting to see his country coast to coast from the van. In 2003, he was unable to travel because of a decline in his health, so he enjoyed co-hosting all 21 hours of the local Baltimore, MD station telethon.
Mattie feels very lucky to have met many wonderful people during his journey through life. He has become close friends with lots of great people, including Jimmy Carter, Oprah Winfrey, Larry King, Christopher Cross, Lance Bass, and Billy Gilman. During 2003, Mattie and Billy Gilman collaborated on a CD project, Music Through Heartsongs. On the CD, Billy sings 12 of Mattie's poems that have been put to various styles of music, including Celtic, soft rock, Hawaiian, country, jazz, and pop-Christian style. One of his favorite tracks, I AM/Shades of Life, was made into a music video, where Mattie has a cameo.
Mattie also feels very blessed just to be alive at age 13. Children born with his disease do not usually live very long. Mattie knows that each day is a gift, and he makes the most of it. He says he gets his strength from God and his mom, and also from the people that become part of his circle of life. "People tell me I inspire them. And that inspires me. It's a beautiful circle, and we all go around together, with and for each other. What a gift," says Mattie.
Mattie Stepanek died at Children's National Medical Center in Washington D.C. on Tuesday, June 22, according to a statement from the hospital. He had been hospitalized since early March for complications related to the disease that weakened most of his body's major functions. Mattie was 13 and is survived by his mom Jeni.
Mattie J.T. Stepanek is a 13-year-old young man who was born with a rare neuromuscular disease called dysautonomic mitochondrial myopathy. His disease is one of the 43 types of diseases being researched by the Muscular Dystrophy Association.
Mattie has also shared his messages of hope and peace on many television programs. He has been on the Oprah Winfrey Show, Larry King Live, Good Morning America, Primetime, The Today Show, and many other programs many times. Every year, he also helps with the Jerry Lewis Labor Day Telethon. In 2002, he drove cross country with his mom, and friends, Sandy and Chris, to be in Los Angeles for the Telethon.
He loved getting to see his country coast to coast from the van. In 2003, he was unable to travel because of a decline in his health, so he enjoyed co-hosting all 21 hours of the local Baltimore, MD station telethon.
Mattie feels very lucky to have met many wonderful people during his journey through life. He has become close friends with lots of great people, including Jimmy Carter, Oprah Winfrey, Larry King, Christopher Cross, Lance Bass, and Billy Gilman. During 2003, Mattie and Billy Gilman collaborated on a CD project, Music Through Heartsongs. On the CD, Billy sings 12 of Mattie's poems that have been put to various styles of music, including Celtic, soft rock, Hawaiian, country, jazz, and pop-Christian style. One of his favorite tracks, I AM/Shades of Life, was made into a music video, where Mattie has a cameo.
Mattie also feels very blessed just to be alive at age 13. Children born with his disease do not usually live very long. Mattie knows that each day is a gift, and he makes the most of it. He says he gets his strength from God and his mom, and also from the people that become part of his circle of life. "People tell me I inspire them. And that inspires me. It's a beautiful circle, and we all go around together, with and for each other. What a gift," says Mattie.
Friday, October 01, 2004
little things..
happy banget nih kayanya si ais, yeah... i'm glad too, atleast one of us in the family that have guts to tell someone they like, the truth... mudah2an aja yg dia hope itu dibuka jalannya... yah udah kliatan sih kayanya responnya baik, never seen him that happy. the thing about my brother is, he never let his real feeling out, jadi pada baru2 ini dia suka ama cw dan suka curhat ke gue, is a BIG thumbs up from me. butuh ditabrak ama orang mabok, terbaring di rumah sakit, ampe mukanya remuk, baru dia yakin suka sama ini cewe, ironisnya ni cewe mau pergi, and if the plan doesn't goes well, it would be for good. jadi dia panik, hahha... it's okay is, loosing someone makes u human.
hmmm...start over?
start new writings... hihi ... kayanya tersendat-sendat gini nih ngisi blognya, nothing much, just wanna write something everyday about me..
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